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I dreamt I was old
06:11
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Begin with a riddle that none of us could solve
Why does the city of stars still
swallow earth for the cold?
It turns the air into sparks and ignites when you see,
No matter how you allocate or sacrifice
There are no guaranties
Two paths down ahead
Two you can take
Make peace in the flames
Or drag them with you
To the universes edge
No one knows what you will see there
But everyone knows why you go
You and I, we're in prayer
For the road, that it holds beneath our feet
So hold my hand through the white noise
Remember the wounds, missteps are trophies
when we're there
We'd go so far
For that reason I'd take you anywhere
Won’t let it be for nothing at all
In horizons, bright sunlight, I say I should learn
But lose myself in endings convinced
this day brings my turn
Part of me was always, part of me never came
A new place, but also the same
You can only sacrifice what you love
And then we pick up the pieces
All the love we can carry we take
And some light is left behind
I still keep my visions
Of how life will be like for future me
One for fullfillment, my own
And one for the people I care for
But I have one where I'm old
And none of this has changed
No solace, no purpose
Just a lifetime of mistakes
And if my sorrow was to repeat itself I woke,
To one more dream in the fold
How do we know that there's someting to wait for
When it all escapes us, our hopes and our hearts
Remember us watching that starlit sky
You said you would recall forever, I don’t think you did
No matter if there's a present, a future
Something has left, and it was qualia
A color only you would ever know
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Down there, in windows open
Deeper is blue, and in fresh air is longing
For nameless volatilities like the end of a rainbow
Some call it “you”
And even when the scent escapes me, I'm still lost
There with my visions that found me in youth
Founded me in youth
"These will be the worst years of your life,
Better spend them now, than later"
So I waited for those better years
Promise that you won't die before me
So that something I miss is alive
Make me the sun and the stars
I'm the wind and the rain
Take me from knowing that this all could end
In a lifetime, a moment, it could be the next breath
But it's alright
As long as I'm still in the air
Down in the canopy
The circles came to a close around the sun
And as they blew up the sky for the fourteenth time
I realised that in waiting for things to change
All my fears had come true,
as well as all the things I’d sworn
Would never happen again
It was all my fault, but I could not change
I was stuck in being myself down here
Like everyone is
But even there, at the edge of night
I could hear them singing
What we told each other forever before
About the brighter tomorrow
How many of us knew? Only you told me
That down here are we, for every year
The cards draw, the colors set forever
I know I should have waited for you
But it seemed okay back then
I was lost in the perceived magnificence
Of going dead into the night
And coming out dancing to the morning light
You and I we were bathing in faces
With the sun shining from the roof
There were songs to keep fresh in their hearts
If someone wanted respite for a moment
You wouldn't fault them for that would you?
Words like
"Every dream I have is in this room but i am not"
Then everyone cheered
I dropped burning liqour on the rug
And no one saw you leave
From black to blue there in windows open
The stars and the rain thought themselves euphoric
I know I said I was in heaven then
But there's no such thing
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And like a film shown
Repeated in our hearts
I've heard it before
And so have you
If something is not
Then how can anything be?
"I want to save the earth I want to show that I'm thankful" Would you, in that case, let go off a perceived significance? Like how age is just a number but still we talk about it,
Like when she was 23 and had her first child
And I was told it came as a release for her
That now at least in her darkest days, she lived for him
They measured him in grams
To racing minds
Living comes in second
And all the time becomes less
Just like our long lives, with everything in the world to do
So now if I say, 31 is the new 27
Does the point come across?
I said I wanted to be born in every country
And still wanted to know I was thankful
In fly ridden kitchens, on stinking floors
Where ambitions left me sleeping for so long
I could barely climb out of dirty sheets one more year
I know was afraid I was wasting it then
And I kept wondering if I know now
If you were to paint stars would you with silver or with gold?
Was I ever there leave it
Let it slide
Down, like
To where you let in the light
Like the ghost I am one of elses dream
My fathers
My teachers
My lovers
Shoes to fill
Wishes to uphold
I'm always so scared
I'm always so scared to look
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saudade
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It's all for springtime
05:37
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I slept so deep, that my heart it tried a new lie
When we all go we choose what we bring with us
It's a lovely lie
The price of living we learn in the death of beginning,
No matter the noise, sever passing we never would
I took a breath of never-ending light
I'm keeping it down in my lungs forever
It feeds to the love, the stars in my blood
That's how I'll be young
I would love to say it got stuck in my head
And gave me profound sleeplessness
But in hours I could think about everything
Just like the day before
So the trunkless kings of desert carried on
There was overcome, somewhere at nights end
We burned love down to ash and blisters
All for when
I took a breath of never-ending light
I'm keeping it down in my lungs forever
It feeds to the love, the stars in my blood
I wish I didn't know
And in the wreckage of summer, I found that breath
Cleaning out your youth room
Two souls on the best of days
Cracks hid your face, as if to remind me
That fires die, and you won’t be here
Even that perpetual flame had to die
Like stars do
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6. |
All for your myth
06:33
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Jag pratade med en vän en gång,
Som berättade att när man tar E,
Så skapas det en sån endorfinstorm i hjärnan
Att den förbränner mer än vad den normalt gör
Under en hel livstid
Jag minns hur hemskt jag tyckte det lät
Hur skrämnde tanken på att den bästa stunden i ditt liv
Inte kanske bara kunde vara oförtjänt,
Men att också att veta att det var kemiskt omöjligt
Att det blev bättre än så
För trots allt, vad kan vara värdefullt
Om man inte kan känna att det är det?
Nu var ju det här några år sedan så det kan ha varit indoktrinationen som talade, men jag hoppas ni förstår om jag väljer att kalla det för en bättre sådan, i så fall
Spola fram ett tag, och jag sitter i baksätet i en bil, och tänker på det där
Tänker på vilka känslor som är värda något, vilka rus som är sanna, om de får sitt värde av handlingarna som leder upp till känslorna
Jag hade funderat på det många gånger innan
Men det var nåt med den kvällen, något ovanligt, extraordinärt
Där i baksätet vreds nyckeln till slut om
All lycka är tredelad, först känns den i stunden, och efter att den tagit slut så lever den i minnet
Och sen när du dör, när du inte ens har dina minnen kvar, så finns den fortfarande där
Utanför tid, inetsad i existensen
Det faktum att det har hänt
Jag var så glad att veta det,
Att hur jag än någonsin kommer må efter den stunden i bilen så hade det ändå hänt
Det kommer alltid stanna där, utanför tid
Det kan inte ens en gud ändra på
Jag undrade om det hade hjälpt dig
Se dagar lila himmel, brinnande pressade sig ner över ännu en kejsare i exil
Du, som hade lovat att komma tillbaka
Innan alla gråhåriga spöken hade skridit in mellan de yttersta stammarna
Till där träden är ett med skuggorna
Innan du spridit dig själv för vinden
Fast så mindes jag till slut de där orden, tillsammans med en fot på fönsterkarmen
"Det var alltid mer för uppenbarlesen
än för vad det egentligen stod."
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7. |
In Murmur
05:38
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Why is it so hard
Remaining in moments?
Like reliving the promise made
It seemed weightless just hours later
Gods made us so
From two-faced smiling, damage hiding ecstacy
To sinking frost
But the festival is still on,
And the artist plays the town square with an orchestra
There's light there with her earth-fueled waves
A ghost who forgot he is dead dances under a starlit sky
With the dreams found in youth from hundreds around
There like a movie, ending
To the sounds of what could have been
Joined hands, counting down from ten
In deafening noise
You know when
A promise to be better
Another spring, another summers end
Night again
And something's missing
Sleepless, careless
Immersed in bliss
And tripping, time always slipping
Call to me
Sing "we are debris"
From a dead age, long gone
So maybe we should swallow the poison
And go, go back to bed
There's nothing for us anyway
Just a pulled down shade
For the life you should trade
To be a drop in an ocean
We could never make
Still there
In murmur
At the edge of night
I decided I could do this
Forever, like we sang
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Tengil Sweden
Sakarias:
Vocals, Noise
Pontus:
Guitar, Noise
Kalle:
Bass, Noise
Tobias:
Drums, Visuals
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